"lately my life has been nothing less that hectic. life does not revole around us, but it is to revole around each other. showing love is something that some struggle with. if i want to step out & live my life for God i need to learn to do that more with my family. seeing my mother come down as upset as see did today to tell me that i had hurt her was one of the most heartbreaking things that i had to hear. my mother is in her 70's and watching her cry & just tell me everything that her life has been made me realize how lucky i am.
unfortunately this is the last straw for my family. i know that everyone is happier when i'm not here. it's the truth because they tell me every single time i come how much of an amazing time they had without me. they've even told me that they wish i would go away more often than none.
running from God was a spot that i hit in my life. it's a horrible experience to not hear God's voice. in the midst of it all, right when you need him the most he comes in & picks you up. he's waiting for me just to turn to him & let him flood back into my life. i don't know if i could miss anything more. my heart breaks because i know what i've done, being caught in the middle of it was the worst feeling that i could have."
This is a blog that I just found that I never posted. Funny how things turn out for the better in the long run. My family & I getting so much closer now. The communication doors got blown right open. God is doing so much in my life right now & I don't understand the half of it but I am going to just trust because that is what I am required to do. He is so gracious & gentle with His childern. Even when we are about to lose our minds, He grabs tight & says just hold on, i've got you. Learn to cling fast & hold tight. Even when the ones we trusted the most fail us, God prevails & protects us.
Until then,
Living for HIM, dying to me, Walking the Way
unfortunately this is the last straw for my family. i know that everyone is happier when i'm not here. it's the truth because they tell me every single time i come how much of an amazing time they had without me. they've even told me that they wish i would go away more often than none.
running from God was a spot that i hit in my life. it's a horrible experience to not hear God's voice. in the midst of it all, right when you need him the most he comes in & picks you up. he's waiting for me just to turn to him & let him flood back into my life. i don't know if i could miss anything more. my heart breaks because i know what i've done, being caught in the middle of it was the worst feeling that i could have."
This is a blog that I just found that I never posted. Funny how things turn out for the better in the long run. My family & I getting so much closer now. The communication doors got blown right open. God is doing so much in my life right now & I don't understand the half of it but I am going to just trust because that is what I am required to do. He is so gracious & gentle with His childern. Even when we are about to lose our minds, He grabs tight & says just hold on, i've got you. Learn to cling fast & hold tight. Even when the ones we trusted the most fail us, God prevails & protects us.
Until then,
Living for HIM, dying to me, Walking the Way
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